Excruciating Suffering: My Battle Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches
It began on a gloomy Monday morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense sensation sprang behind my one eye. Then came rapid shocks, similar to electric shocks. As each class came and went, the pain subsided and then came back with increased force. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took aspirin, but the pain remained unrelenting.
The headaches returned frequently that autumn, and again in spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-blown pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.
This condition typically begin with severe pain behind one eye that persists up to several hours.
About one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches usually start with sudden, excruciating pain around a single eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal bouts; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of extended pain-free periods.
What connects sufferers is the severity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.
One patient, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, similar to several causes, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.
Her family often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.
Nevertheless, the inability to plan life around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.
Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The first account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They linked the disease to an evil entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.
Historical healing records propose unusual remedies for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a separate condition, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.
It was a European doctor who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and vanishing daily at specific hours”.
The disorder were only formally classified by international headache committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major artery which supplies blood to the brain. Prominent experts in treating the disorder note this.
In the late 1990s, scientists released the findings of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a major journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.
In spite of such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor looked up his complaints.
Specialists say delays in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” one says. He works by ruling out other primary head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough history is essential: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain features such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But many first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.
A charity trustee, 78, has experienced the condition for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes dentists still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor guided them through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased.
National guidance on management advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of some people.
But leading specialists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a more defined clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the cycle determines the approach.” Short cycles with occasional attacks are managed with abortive therapy only. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.
The official guidelines need revising to reflect a